Given today’s date, it’s an appropriate time to talk about new writerly beginnings, don’t you think? I mean, blank slate, resolutions and all that. (And also: FREAKING OUT. Debut year is here!)
So let me say this: I don’t have a problem with beginnings. I love the first smitten stages, when you’re exploring the possibilities of a new idea, spinning characters and seeing the whole thing take shape. It’s endings I have an issue with. So much of the time, I just can’t get to the two sweetest words in the English language: “The End.”
All that said, I have a confession to make. Every year, I make grandiose resolutions aimed toward meeting my inevitably pie-in-the-sky goals. I’ve always dreamt big, and my eyes are bigger than my stomach, etc. And every year, well, I mostly fail to meet those expectations. Because always on my to-do list there’s one particular project that I hope to complete. And it’s the one I fail at every time.
This year was no different. For more than a decade now, I’ve been chasing this story — it was once the book of my heart. It’s not so much anymore, but boy is there a lot of old school Sona in it. Maybe that’s why it’s so hard to write — I’m not quite that girl anymore. But maybe that’s why I’m so committed to finishing it — she’s such a big part of me still.
So once again this year, I’ll be chasing that goal. I’m resolved to do it. But I’m a sucker, maybe, because there’s that hope rearing it’s pretty little head again. Maybe this will be the year. You never know. So here’s to blank pages, and filling them up with words. May your 2015 be fruitful.
Yep, this is the year Sona! You’ll get it done! And yay- it’s our debut year!!!!! *vomits in corner*