Glaston… wherey? by Deb Jennifer

I have a lot of memories, and I mine them frequently for my fiction writing, and for blog posts on the Ball — but there’s little doubt in my mind that many of them are just plain wrong.  I am notorious for not remembering things the way they really were, or for forgetting things altogether.

My brother teases me about this when we take little trips down memory lane.  To illustrate his point, he simply has to say, “Glastonbury.”  To which I say, “Huh?”

See, for two or three (or maybe more?) years of my life, I lived in a town in Connecticut that I really remember almost nothing of.  I remember our address (38 Williams Street – see Tom, I didn’t forget everything!) and that our house was white and brick.  I lived in the basement, which I painted purple.  I remember the names of some of my friends, but in all honesty, most of that whole time period is a blur.

Yes, I was a teenaged stoner.  Sort of a self-absorbed idiot, actually.  But I should still be able to describe the way you got from our house to, say, the high school (I think it was so close I could walk…) or where we did our grocery shopping.  (We must have gone shopping, right?)

My brother now lives quite close to Glastonbury and sometimes incorporates old landmarks into his conversation: “It’s right near Glen Lochen…” then he stops himself.  “Oh, that’s right.  You don’t remember Glastonbury.”

But I do remember some things.  Like one year, when we lived in Glastonbury, my grandmother announced we weren’t going to have Christmas (she was upset, no doubt by the two difficult, ungrateful teenagers living with her, one of whom remembered nothing).  In the 11th hour, my friend Billy and I stole a tree from a lot, took it home and got my grandmother drunk on high octane eggnog – so drunk she sang O Tannenbaum all the way through in German, tottering around our beautifully trimmed tree.  It’s one of those memories I cherish, all bright and shimmery at the edges.

So Tom, if you’re reading this, and it isn’t really the way it happened, don’t you dare tell me.  Don’t tell me that I paid actual money for the tree or that Grandma didn’t really sing that song.   Let me remember this one the way I want to, the way my brain and heart say it should have been, even if it’s not exactly the way things really happened.

4 thoughts on “Glaston… wherey? by Deb Jennifer

  1. A few years ago a friend and I were talking and I mentioned an event that I remembered crystal clear. She has no memory of it at all. Thus either I made it up (her theory) or she blacked it out (my theory).

  2. Memory is so interesting. I have blocks of time (years) that I remember very little about, with the exception of a few memories that stand out. It’s fascinating how we unconsciously fill in the gaps with details that may or not be real, but that become very real — sort of like the movie Memento. Family members seem to always be the reality check that frequently contradicts our very real recollections; however, I always consider the dissenting story tellers to be unreliable narrators 😉

  3. It’s weirder watching video of something you don’t remember, but it’s obviously you there. Then, you have false memory of that date…

  4. Whether or not you remember, Jennifer, doesn’t matter because you fill-in those memory lapses with an even better storyline. For example, you once saw a dead crow hanging on a fence — I think — and eventually Del appeared to you, whispering, “Promise not to tell.” I’m so glad you broke that vow and allowed “your little book” to go out into the world. We all knew your success was inevitable, thank you so much for taking me along on the ride.

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