I love starting projects.
I get all excited planning the project, it’s a chance to buy new office supplies, I have big dreams for how I want it to turn out and every time about ¾ of the way through….pffft.
Pffft is the sound of my enthusiasm running out.
Currently, in my house I have all of the following:
– one sock knit, one sock just started
– the yarn and pattern to make a sweater
– my office closet half cleaned out
– the start of a presentation I’m doing in the fall
– a pile of paperwork on my desk to be sorted
– a stack of cooking magazines where I fully plan to tear just the good recipes out
– a spreadsheet program to organize and track my business receipts plus a shoebox of receipts.
– a list of planned updates for my website
There is something about a new project. It hasn’t become work yet. There is still a real chance that I might not screw it up. This happens when I write too. I become rabidly excited about a new book project. I love the research. I love finding just the right opening sentence. Then a few hundred pages in, it suddenly occurs to me as if a bolt from the blue, “hey this sucks.” Depression follows (full on wallow and dramatic sighs optional)
As a dear friend once told me “writing is not like being licked by kittens.” It is hard work. What typically separates the published from the unpublished is the willingness to see the project through. Even on the days when you want to cash it in. Even on the days you are sure it is the worst thing ever written. Even on the days when you are sure you don’t even know how to finish it.
For now- I’m going to get back to the sock. What is one project you’ve left undone?
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