Hindsight? My launch was less than a month ago. I haven’t looked in the rearview mirror yet because I’m still barreling down the highway. And if that metaphorical highway looks anything like the roads I’ve been traveling in real life this week, there are construction hazards blocking half the lanes.
Back to the metaphor? I guess the construction hazards mean I’m still learning from my launch.
Like: Listen to your GPS system when it says EXIT NOW, IDIOT.
Hindsight, it seems to me, insinuates that I have some regrets about how my debut has gone.
Now I love regret—as a topic. Amelia has lots of regrets in The Black Hour; the protagonist of my next book, though younger, has even more. As much as I would like to say I live without regret, the truth is—well, if it’s my number one theme for two novels so far, what do you think? I don’t live without regret. None of us do.
For instance, I sometimes talk about the five years I didn’t write a thing. Five YEARS. I could write a lot of books in five years. You better believe I regret not writing during that time. But then I wonder which books I would have written, and which book I might have had published first. Would it have been as satisfying a debut for me, personally?
Who knows, right? No one. That’s the bitch with regrets. You’ll never know which side of the fence might have been greener.
With that tough life truism in mind, I’ve been running my launch in a way that I hope heads regrets off at the pass.
Like: Saying yes, even when it makes me nervous.
Like: Reading and learning as much as possible beforehand.
Like: Lining up help from people who know more than I do.
Like: Writing the next book before anything anyone says about my first book (good or bad) burrows into my brain and stops me cold.
So, even though it’s a little early for me to say what I would do differently, I feel pretty good about the way things have gone. I’ve met a lot of great people, gone to great conferences and bookstores, been in some of the media I always wanted to be in.
It’s not done, is the thing. There are a lot more construction delays in my future, because that’s what you get when you’re still building.