Happy New Year, y’all! Let’s hope it’s better than the shit-show of a year that was 2017, yeah?
As I thought about resolutions this year, a brilliant friend of mine said something that really stuck with me. Instead of resolving to do, she lets go. And that is a practice I very much want to adopt. Because, my friends,I have been dropping the ball lately. Dropping the ball on beta reads, dropping the ball on blogging, dropping the ball on Instagram, and y’all, I cannot even SEE the Twitter ball anymore. One of the dogs probably buried it in the yard. So this year, while I do have some pretty intense personal and professional goals which I’ll briefly skim over later, I mostly want to talk about the things and the habits I’m letting go of this year.
- I will let go of my fear of pain. For the last two years, I’ve been dealing with extreme joint pain that has made my life rather challenging and stumped my doctors. And in that time, I’ve slowly let go of the things that make me hurt, but also make me stronger. I stopped taking long walks with my dogs because those walks sometimes left me in bed the next day. But sometimes they didn’t. I stopped lifting weights because sometimes I couldn’t lift a pen the next day. But sometimes I could. There’s no correlation (at this point) between my activity level and my pain. In 2018 I’m not going to hesitate to take full advantage of my good days. I’m going to let go of being afraid of hurting.
- I want to let go of my feelings about how others perceive me. I can control what I do, but I can’t control how other people feel about it. So I will be as kind, as generous, and as honest as I can manage, and if that’s not enough for someone, I’m going to try to say, “fine by me.”
- I will let go of The Diminished. As soon as that big ol’ thing is in print, it’s not mine anymore. It’s yours. And while OF COURSE I’ll still be doing promotion, and I still care about its success, I can’t control its reception. So I’m letting it go.
- I’m letting go of judging myself. I am pretty great, y’all, and I need to stop letting that jerk inside my brain tell me otherwise.
SO THAT SHOULD BE EASY, RIGHT?? RIGHT???